This is not the first time I am questioning myself, but this seems to be a serious one and has been bugging me for long. I am really not sure what I am doing with my current employer, except for editing a few articles and taking part in some mundane activities happening around me. Nothing is motivating me to go to work. Blame it on the absence of pretty girls or routine faces and work or anything you would like, I am looking out for something challenging and new.

Worst of all, I have been screaming at a few HR policies and personnel in the HR department. I have tried to be don the avatar of a silent spectator, but my belligerent nature doesn't let me live peacefully. After self introspection, I concluded that I need to get out of the place as soon as possible not only for my good but also for the good of the company and my colleagues.

Yesterday, it was the turn of my new home constructor to face the music. He woke me in the morning and with a disappointed tone started yelling over delay in the registration process. I tried to pacify him for a while, but again, as always, changed gears and retorted strongly. I felt bad for having done that, but that's how I have been behaving over the last few weeks.

More updates coming.

Life has suddenly become routine - getting up late, hurrying to office, slogging without much interest, going back to home, listening to music and sleeping.

When I say this to my friends and family members, they advise me to get married as soon as possible. So I stopped complaining in front of them. I know that the problem lies within me. Nothing interests me for long, including myself.

Watching Jalsaa pumped me up a bit, but again nothing new (read interesting) happening at my work place is boring me a lot. I think it is the time for me to take a big break (at least a week) and visit my parents who stay in Kakinada, a beautiful port town. I am eagerly waiting for my Techie brother to fly down from the US to induce some energy and momentum back in me again. Also want to look at the stuff he has promised to bring us.

Even writing this has begun to bore me. This is called tokkalo jeevitham!

This is something I always try to avoid. Being alone in my home makes me dull and life boring. Though I have all the gadgets to keep me engaged - Internet enabled-PC, Home Theater, Cable TV, friends who often come and go, I miss the family touch. My grand mom and Grand pa left for my uncle's place last Sunday leaving me alone in a big house, to return only on November 01.

My first day went off without much trouble. I cooked my own food, packed my lunch and went to office. After a tiring day, came back to home at 9:00 pm only to be invited by an eerie silence that prevailed across the 1st floor. I had my dinner at my uncle's house and went to bed. From today, I will, however, not have even that privilege and have to cook again in the night too.

If I say these things a bit loud, everyone would advice me to get married, for which, I believe, there is still some time.

When everything seemed to become tougher in the days to come, my mum called me to say me something very exciting. She and dad are coming for this Dussera and would be here for about a week.

Looking forward to arrival of my parents.